Leader

Leader

“D’you like leading?"
We’re dancing forro, the starters are just about to finish an eight-week intro course, and we’re short on leaders. I’m a Student Supporter, so I step up.
“Do you like it?” my follower wants to know.
I think what she really means is, “I don’t know if I could lead. It’d be awkward. I’d be bamboozled, gobsmacked, and discombobulated.”
I say, “I worry about spoiling people’s time.”
She says, “You could never spoil people’s time.”
The call comes to change partners. She moves on. 
A gem of chat. A sweet sharing.
Later, I look back on her question. I ask myself, “DO I like leading?”
The answer surprises me.
I think, “It isn’t about liking or disliking leading, because dancing isn’t about the leader or the follower. Dancing’s about what two people do.”
And that’s not the look-at-me, stage-and-floodlights stuff, either. Partner dancing’s about the sharing and communicating and humility that goes into it. (Just like life, really.) It’s about what two people do in the dance-minutes to come. Things they mightn’t have been able to do in the dance-minutes just gone.
I had danced for more than ten years before I went into a Rio Rhythmics Student Supporter workshop where leaders and followers were asked to swap roles. I was a first-time leader and in my nervous embrace, all the male dancers went heavy as lead. Not understanding, I wanted to ask them, “What’s the matter?” Clumsily, I galumphed one follower after another around the floor. And then, a light bulb moment. “Hold your horses,” I told myself. “Just a cotton pickin’ minute, now. He’s following YOUR lead, isn’t he? Doing what YOU’RE asking him to do, just the way he’s supposed to.”
So I adjusted my frame. (Suddenly we were a little lighter.) I listened a little more closely and cared a little bit more. (Hey presto! We were lighter still.)
And I thought, “Is this what leaders go through? This must be what leaders go through!”
I’m still a beginner leader, but that long-ago Student Supporter workshop opened up a whole new dance-life perspective.
Do I like leading? I should have told my dancer-follower, “I like the dance partnership.”
I should have said, “It’s the most beautiful thing in the world.”